Wednesday, March 19, 2008

just me venting

Ok, So I have not been around much these days. The 21st would have marked 36 weeks for me and that is the day we were looking to start labor if i had not gone in on my own... So needless to say its been a rough week for us. However on a new note the 21st i am going to see Dr. Davis for a consult to see if I will qualify for a TAC.(trans abdominal cerclage). So we will see what he says Friday I have to tell all of you that i am SCARED SHIT.... WHAT IF HE SAYS NO HE WILL NOT DO IT...... I think i will fall on the floor right there in the office. The high risk Dr. said he does not think i qualify normally you need to lose 2 pregnancy's before they will consider you for one.. WHO THE FUCK DO THEY THINK THEY ARE..........As if loosing 1 was not good enough.....I would like to see how the story would change if the shoe were on the other foot. Anyway he said and i quote" WELL LISA IF IT G_D FORBID HAPPENS AGAIN THEN WE WILL DO IT".I understand all the insurance bullcrap but come on this is someones life you are talking about. Against what everyone said i am going to see Dr. Davis this Friday I figured what is the worse thing he could say the same thing everyone else has already told me. I am not giving up ... There is no remorse I WILL HAVE A TAC PLACED I DON'T CARE IF I HAVE TO FLY TO CHINA TO GET IT.......... I WILL HAVE A FAT HEALTHY FULL TERM CRYING CHILD IN MY ARMS. Ok so as always thank you for listening to me rant. I needed to get all this off my shoulders. I will post after my appt and let everyone know the outcome.


Amy said...

I just so cannot stand the insurance crap! I'm so sorry! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!

Becky said...

Everything is going to be perfect. You'll love him : )

I've been thinking about you all week. Especially tomorrow. It'll be bittersweet. But you are so much stronger than you give yourself credit for.